Return To 1990

Chapter 643

Lu Feng was silly on the spot. One bad idea after another came to mind, but he was unwilling to believe it, but he couldn't give himself a reasonable explanation.

After entering the house, Duoduo lay on the table doing his homework, looked up at Lu Feng and asked, "Mom hasn't come back yet?"

Lu Feng's heart was tight. He was always calm and calm. He didn't know how to answer her. He licked his dry lips and said, "I'll give you a holiday today and go back to bed."

"The teacher will check it tomorrow." Duoduo looked at the book in his hand and said.

"Then go upstairs and write!" Lu Feng advised.

Duoduo went upstairs with his homework book, pencil and eraser. Walking on the stairs, the little guy stopped sadly and said, "I miss her."

"All right, go back to the house. You'll be back in a few days. Tell her face to face." Lu Feng didn't even dare to look at her expectant eyes.

Duoduo went back to the house. Aunt Liu finished her work in the kitchen and took off her scarf to go back to the house.

"Aunt Liu, wait a minute." Lu Feng looked at her and said.

"What... What's the matter?" Aunt Liu dodged and said, "I'm a little sleepy."

"It won't take much time." Lu Feng looked at her and asked, "where has Jiang Xiaoyan gone?"

"I'm going out to play. I can't open my eyes. I'll go back to bed first." Aunt Liu said and hurried to her bedroom.

"Stop!" Lu Feng burst out and said, "I'm the head of this family. What's wrong? What hospital is she in now? What's the matter?"

Aunt Liu's face turned pale when she heard this. It was so far that there was no point in hiding it. Aunt Liu had to say it all.

In the hospital, Jiang Xiaoyan's face ruddy a lot, but her eyes still don't look much. Zhang Fengxia sitting next to her seems a little tired.

During the whole day, Jiang Xiaoyan talked a lot about how the matchmaker introduced the two people and how they got married. After the long years of torture, she wanted to end her life more than once.

However, as Lu Feng changed, she seemed to see the sun rise in her world and thought that she would only be accompanied by happiness for the rest of her life. She never thought that life like a roller coaster had just begun. As Jiang Xiaoyan said, she was the luckiest person in the world, but she was also the most unfortunate person in the world.

The so-called ups and downs are nothing more than that.

Jiang Xiaoyan told Zhang Fengxia about a lot of prejudices in the village. When family planning is so strict, even with a fine, some people still have sons.

Even Jiang Xiaoyan can feel it. Since Jiang Xiaohong gave birth to a son, her own mother is a little impatient with herself.

She began to feel panic and insecurity. She couldn't sleep anxiously all night. Sometimes she even had auditory hallucinations. She always felt that someone was laughing at herself behind her back.

He didn't dare to face Lu Feng's parents. During the Chinese new year last year, Jiang Xiaoyan collapsed just because he asked about her children.

She was almost pushed to the limit. Being pregnant at this time was the coming of the gods in her life.

"You advised me so much. I know everything about foreign countries and ideological changes. I also know that they all exist, but they are too far away from me." Jiang Xiaoyan took a deep breath, reddened her eyes and said: "I can't pass my own level. Others' forgiveness for me is like a punishment. How can I face him? He has so many assets, but I can't give him a son and a half?"

Zhang Fengxia always felt that Jiang Xiaoyan was a woman who came out of the countryside and was imprisoned by her thoughts, but after listening to her so much, she put herself in her shoes and thought that if she were her, she might not be as good as her.

She can't get out of the prejudice of others against her, what's more, her own prejudice against herself.

Lu Feng drove to the municipal hospital, ran to the front desk and asked, "Hello, I want to ask, which ward is Jiang Xiaoyan in?"

"Which Jiang Xiaoyan? Which department do you live in?" the nurse asked without raising her head.

"Gynecology or obstetrics, I don't understand. She was sent with a child. Please check it for me!"

The nurse looked through the book in her hand and said, "Ward 403, fourth floor."

"Thank you!"

Lu Feng then trotted up the stairs. As soon as he came to the door of the ward, he heard the voice of Jiang Xiaoyan inside. Lu Feng stood at the door, holding the door handle.

"What do you say I do? How can I face him? No matter how thick my skin is, I don't want face anymore. I can't stay beside him and be a loser!"

"He loves me, but one day he doesn't love me. I have nothing. I live in fear every day. Now I don't even have children. What should I do? Tell me, what should I do?"

Zhang Fengxia grabbed her hand and couldn't answer her question. The two family members complement each other. When one party is too strong, the other party will naturally be uneasy and afraid of loss. Coupled with Jiang Xiaoyan's growth environment and psychological problems, she is about to collapse.

Lu Feng's hand to open the door loosened. He sat on the bench beside him in a low mood. For so long, he seemed to be possessed by magic and tried to make money. The enterprise became bigger and bigger, and there were more and more people under his hand.

However, she seems to lack concern for Jiang Xiaoyan. Lu Feng can also feel that she really doesn't want to have so much money. First, she likes plain and light, and the money is enough to spend. Second, the more money she has, the more she feels inferior.

Life is a matter for two people. What we need is not only the closeness of our hearts, but also the same social status and more common words.

Lu Feng thought about it carefully. She didn't seem to care about her feelings. Every time she came back from a business trip, she always talked about the trivial things around herself. What's the matter with Duoduo, when a dog came, when the wind blew and when it rained.

This kind of thing that would not be noticed in the eyes of busy people is all of her life. What a lonely person would notice so carefully.

Lu Feng wanted to go in and say sorry to her, but he knew that Jiang Xiaoyan couldn't face herself now. Her mood was on the verge of collapse. Going in rashly would only worsen things.

In the room, Zhang Fengxia slowly calmed her down. Lu Feng sat outside. The clock on the wall pointed to 11 p.m.

Lu Feng stood up and took a deep breath. He decided to go home first. Maybe he should give her more time and space to catch her breath.

In the ward, Jiang Xiaoyan's eyes turned red, looked at Zhang Fengxia and said, "I really can't live. It's too painful. It's worse than killing me. Leave me alone, will you?"

"What are you talking about? You're dead. What about Duoduo? What about your parents?" Zhang Fengxia hurriedly advised.

"There's Xiaohong at home. My mother thinks I'm ashamed. When Lu Feng was just getting rich, she often mentioned me to others. Now she doesn't want to say it. She just said Xiaohong. I'm not valued at home. When I work, I cook more and eat delicious food, but I eat less."

"What about Duoduo? She will become an orphan. Don't think about it!"

"Duoduo is not my child. He is so rich that any stepmother can be found. No one needs me. I always need someone else. I need him to support me. I need Duoduo to be my child. I need that family." Jiang Xiaoyan choked and said, "I... I really can't live anymore. Leave me alone, please, really please!"

"I'll kowtow to you. Don't worry about me. You're an elite talent returning from studying abroad. What are you doing with women running out of my countryside?"

"Stop talking nonsense. It's just a child. He doesn't know anything now." Zhang Fengxia was worried and subconsciously said, "it's just a child. I'll give birth to it for you!"

"Do you live for me?" Jiang Xiaoyan seemed to have caught the life-saving straw in life. She sat up from bed fiercely, stared at Zhang Fengxia tightly and asked, "can you really live for me?"

Zhang Fengxia didn't expect that she would take her words of comfort seriously, but it was already at this point, so she had to harden her head and say, "I gave birth for you. When I went to school abroad, people there were open, and giving birth to children was like playing."

"In this way, it is also his child. When the child grows up, I will recover and have another one." Jiang Xiaoyan muttered to herself.

As long as she can stay with Lu Feng and have reason to convince herself, she will not give up. Even if it is absurd, only herself and Zhang Fengxia know.

"There's still time? I'm three months pregnant now." Jiang Xiaoyan asked uneasily, "will I be found?"

"No... it's all right. When you say to go abroad for pregnancy, he won't know." Zhang Fengxia feels that her face is a little stiff.

"You'll help me, won't you?" Jiang Xiaoyan looked at her with expectation in her eyes. She had no choice.

Zhang Fengxia had thought a lot before, but she didn't expect that she and Lu Feng would go on in this way. This thing is absurd and unbelievable, but it really happened.

She took a deep breath, life so far, perhaps all life, like or love, is an attempt.

"You like him, don't you?" asked Jiang Xiaoyan.

"Don't talk nonsense!"

"I'm not blind. I can see it." Jiang Xiaoyan smiled. She grabbed Zhang Fengxia's hand and said, "you're very good. You have a good person, character, education, family background and appearance. As a woman, you can be said to be perfect. Sometimes I feel ashamed when compared with you."

"Where do you say so much? Promise me first. Don't look for life or death."

"As long as you are pregnant, I will promise you."

"OK!" Zhang Fengxia nodded and agreed.

Jiang Xiaoyan laughed and cried.