wavenovel Chapter 1406 Whatever
Chapter 1406 Whatever
Chapter 1406 Whatever
"What's wrong with you?"
Chou Tzu-yu tensed up immediately, as if sensing something was wrong, but Chi Ching-yuan asked in confusion, "What? What's wrong?"
"you……"
Zhou Ziyu really felt that Chi Jingyuan's state was a bit off. According to her understanding, even if the man was grateful, he would still say some things to annoy her or argue with her, such as "What's the rush? If you can't get through, then don't call." or "What could be wrong? Do you think I'm like you?"
But what did he say...?
Feel sorry?
Why... did you suddenly apologize?
Chou Tzu-yu was both puzzled and worried, but she couldn't directly ask, "Why did you apologize?" So she paused slightly, softened her voice, and asked cautiously, "Did you... not get enough rest?"
...Chi Kyung-won probably didn't expect that this apology would not make Chou Tzu-yu feel apologetic and relieved, but would instead make her even more nervous.
"Hmm... a little."
But Chi Jingyuan didn't realize what the dark-skinned girl meant at this moment, and instead went along with it and admitted it.
"Because you're in a bad mood? I knew it..." A voice with the tone of 'I knew it' came from her ear. Chou Tzu-yu changed the subject and made a request: "I want to come see you."
A soft, sweet voice stirred in his ear. Zhou Ziyu's familiar, slightly swaying tone seemed to have a calming effect at this moment. After taking a shower, Chi Jingyuan walked to the window, looked at the grass and garden outside, and felt less stuffy: "Aren't you going to have any more schedules?"
"I want to ask for leave to visit you."
Chou Tzu-yu explained her plan: "My manager should agree... I was thinking of asking for leave last night when you didn't answer my calls."
"Why did you come to see me? Aren't I annoying enough already?"
"I won't bother you, I just want to be by your side." Chou Tzu-yu said confidently, "Maybe seeing me will make you feel better."
"It's hard to say~"
Chi Jingyuan hummed twice, politely declining: "I didn't sleep all night. I'm going to eat something later and then take a nap."
Why aren't you asleep?
"..."
A brief silence: "I can't sleep."
"Then how come you can fall asleep again now?"
"Because...hearing your voice makes me feel better."
"Liar!"
A sweet, innocent voice came through, but the dark-skinned girl didn't believe it at all. She softly comforted her, "Although what happened to Jonghyun is really sad, don't be too upset. If you're not feeling well, don't be alone. You can talk to me more..."
"I mean it."
However, Chi Jingyuan didn't seem to be joking, and someone interrupted Chi Jingyuan's last words.
Ji Jingyuan was telling the truth... but he knew that it wasn't just Zhou Ziyu's voice; there could be many other reasons as well.
Last night he really wanted to fall asleep, to sleep to relieve or escape the sadness and negative emotions in his heart.
However, he simply couldn't do it. No matter how hard he tried, he was tormented by that feeling of heaviness and suffocation all night long, half-asleep and half-awake, as if he were sick with a fever. Even when he woke up this morning, his head was still throbbing.
After waking up, I looked at the caring text messages from my friends on my phone, spaced out for a while, drank some water, took a shower, made a phone call, and chatted. The feeling of blockage and heaviness that had been weighing on my chest seemed to lighten considerably.
He was clearly feeling hungry and sleepy, and wanted to go to bed.
I still feel sad, regretful, and uncomfortable, but the intense feeling of suffocation has really eased a lot.
Perhaps that's just how life is; no matter how strong the emotions, they will always be diluted by something else.
"I……"
Upon hearing such blunt words, Chou Tzu-yu's voice immediately froze, and her breathing became slightly rapid.
He's probably feeling smug and happy inside.
"Then why won't you let me come!" Chou Tzu-yu's voice was sweet, but also clearly a little dissatisfied: "Hearing my voice makes me feel a little better, so if you see me, won't your mood immediately improve!"
"That's hard to say."
Chi Jingyuan pouted: "I'm going to take a nap later. What are you doing here? Are you coming to sleep with me?"
"Hum~"
I thought these words would shut Chou Tzu-yu down, but to my surprise, the black girl on the phone hummed twice and said, "It's not like it's impossible~"
"Chou Tzu-yu, can't you have a little more self-respect?"
"You're not just anyone!"
"So I can do this, you lecherous woman?"
"Yes, that's fine!"
"..."
Chi Jingyuan couldn't help but laugh, and the faint transparent reflection in the window seemed to be laughing happily: "You can go there by yourself... Alright, I'm not talking to you anymore. Let's finish up these next few days."
"Then go to sleep, and eat more. Haven't you eaten since you got back yesterday?"
"understood."
"..."
After a brief silence, Chou Tzu-yu's voice suddenly lost its playful and coquettish tone and became serious again: "Are you really okay?"
"..."
Chi Jingyuan slowly exhaled, looked at the clear sky outside, and said softly, "I'll be fine after a good night's sleep, don't worry."
"Mmm." Hearing his tone, Chou Tzu-yu obediently responded, seemingly much relieved.
"By the way, what's your schedule for today?"
Just as he was about to hang up the phone, Chi Jingyuan seemed to suddenly remember something and casually asked a question.
"The itinerary?"
Upon hearing this, Chou Tzu-yu thought for a moment and then said, "We just recorded an interview program, and we have another interview later. We don't have any music show performances today, and we don't have any group schedules this afternoon. Nayeon and I are going to record a variety show, and Jihyo and the others have a singing program."
Chaeyoung and Mina were supposed to have a live broadcast today, but it was canceled because of that incident... Oh, by the way, Sana unnie has a magazine interview and photoshoot.
The girl didn't hide anything and told everyone the team's itinerary information in one go.
This is what happens when you've been a spy for a long time.
After she finished speaking, she belatedly asked, "What? Did you come to see me?"
"Not looking for you."
"So who are you looking for when you ask this?"
"I'm thinking of recruiting your team members, but I'm still hesitating."
"Hmph, whatever~"
…………
TV station.
"..."
After hanging up the phone, Chou Tzu-yu pouted, seemingly a little unhappy, but her eyebrows were perky, her eyes were bright, and her expression clearly relaxed a lot.
She couldn't get through to Chi Jingyuan no matter how many times she called last night. She tried more than a dozen times but no one answered. She was really anxious, afraid that something had happened to him.
...Although I knew that Chi Jingyuan must be in a bad mood, I thought that if something happened, it shouldn't be anything serious.
But I just can't help worrying.
I didn't sleep well last night, and my head was throbbing when I woke up this morning... but I felt much better after making this phone call.
Although Chi Jingyuan's strange changes made her a little uncomfortable, she also understood his personality and tone of voice, and hearing what he said made her feel much more at ease.
Although she knew that Chi Jingyuan had many words of comfort for her and told her not to worry, he was still very sad inside.
But at least it's much better than yesterday when he wouldn't answer the phone.
How is Tzuyu?
Seeing that Tzuyu had hung up the phone, Dahyun immediately asked with concern, "Is Kyungwon oppa alright?"
As she spoke, Sana Minatozaki, who was standing next to her, naturally looked at her, her upturned eyes revealing a mixture of probing and concern.
"It's alright, he said nothing's wrong. He didn't answer the phone yesterday because he was in a bad mood and his phone was on silent," Zhou Ziyu said softly as she sat down next to him.
"That's good, you don't need to worry too much... and we don't need to worry too much either." Upon hearing this, Kim Da-hyun patted her chest and breathed a sigh of relief.
She may not have as much contact or closeness with Chou Tzu-yu or other friends as she does with Ji Kyung-won, but she has a very good impression of this oppa and is grateful for his care. Her worries are genuine.
"He said he was fine, but he was clearly still in a bad mood."
But after saying that, Chou Tzu-yu pouted and added, "Jonghyun and he had a very good relationship. Now that something like that has happened, he must be feeling very bad."
"Yeah...sigh." Kim Da-hyun also sighed.
"He needs to catch up on his sleep; he'll probably be going to Jonghyun's memorial service later."
"By the way, will we go?"
"Our agent said we're not going...after all, we're not from the same company."
Sana Minatozaki, who was standing next to her, listened to the conversation between the two, especially Tzuyu's words about Chi Jingyuan. She habitually opened her mouth slightly, but did not make a sound.
Upon hearing her mention Chi Jingyuan's situation, Minatozaki Sana blinked gently, seemingly relaxing a bit.
But soon, a dimness crept into her bright eyes.
Because, the text message I mustered up the courage to send yesterday... he still hasn't replied.
Perhaps I was just being delusional.
But, do I really hate her that much?
Sana Minato couldn't help but feel some doubt, even resentment and self-pity.
Just then, her phone suddenly vibrated in her pocket. Sana Minatozaki's expression changed slightly, and she quickly took the phone out.
They moved quickly, as if they were anticipating something.
But upon seeing the text appear on the screen, his expression suddenly changed, his fingers tightened, and he gripped the phone tightly.
"You damn bitch, how dare you block me? You really think I can't find you? Just you wait."
………………
While Ji Kyung-won was processing his emotions at home, the outside world was still engaged in explosive discussions surrounding Kim Jong-hyun's suicide.
At 10 a.m. on the 19th, SM Entertainment confirmed the news of Kim Jong-hyun's passing again, stating that "all colleagues, artists and staff are deeply saddened."
The company emphasized that it respects the family's wishes and the funeral will be held discreetly, urging the media and fans to refrain from speculative reporting.
Meanwhile, Kim Jong-hyun's family also released a portion of his suicide note.
"I've been plagued by depression since childhood. It eventually consumed me; I couldn't overcome it, and I hated myself..."
"Even if you can't see me off with a smile, please don't blame anyone."
These words, written in utter despair, resonated deeply with all the fans and sentimental netizens, drawing them into a profound sense of sorrow and empathy.
Especially for Kim Jong-hyun and SHINee's fans, it was the first time they realized that their idols were going through such a painful time every day. On stage, they were glamorous people, but in private, they were people who were so desperate that they couldn't breathe.
This suffocating contrast has caused immense grief to every fan.
However, while this suicide note saddened fans and countless others, it also provided a definitive answer to the reason behind Kim Jong-hyun's suicide.
When the news first broke yesterday, no one believed that a popular A-list idol would suddenly commit suicide. Even his friends in the industry didn't believe it, let alone his fans.
Therefore, all sorts of conspiracy theories are circulating online, such as offending someone or a chaebol. Everyone is calling on SM Entertainment and the police to give a real answer.
Now, after seeing the suicide note, everyone finally knows the reason.
depression.
"Can depression really kill people?"
This is the first reaction of many people, and many people have always thought that this is just a pretentious disease of whining without cause.
But now, Jonghyun himself has told them.
Yes, it's very serious, so serious that... people could die.
While everyone was still in shock, the media abruptly shifted their focus.
Now that it has been confirmed as suicide, caused by severe depression, the conspiracy theories that were hyped up yesterday are pointless.
"Jonghyun's suicide note mentioned 'the pain of being swallowed by the world,' which sparked discussions about cyberbullying, industry pressure, and the stigma of depression. Many netizens called for attention to mental health and criticized the 'assembly line management' of entertainment companies."
The media began to shift their focus, turning their attention to 'depression' and reflections on cyberbullying and industry pressures.
After realizing that the passing of a person should not be delayed, Kim Jong-hyun's fans around the world launched memorial activities on social media such as "#StayStrongShawol" and "#ThankYouJonghyun", and placed flowers and handwritten letters of condolence at the SM Entertainment building in Seoul and outside the scene of the incident in Cheongdam-dong.
Other media outlets took a different approach, focusing their reporting on the topic of "some media outlets exposing details of the rescue and the contents of the suicide note, which was criticized as an invasion of privacy and sparked public criticism of the boundaries of media reporting."
At the same time, some people continue to promote various conspiracy theories, always trying to make sensational claims, as if they are afraid of not getting attention.
In short, everyone was playing their own role, creating a noisy and chaotic scene.
It was clearly a very sad event, but it was made to look like a grand spectacle.
…………
"There are a lot of people."
The nanny van stopped outside the funeral home of Asan Hospital in Seoul. Ji Kyung-won looked out the window at the crowded square outside and the figures coming and going at the entrance of the funeral home.
After talking to Chou Tzu-yu on the phone in the morning, Chi Kyung-won ate something and then went to bed to catch up on sleep until the afternoon.
After getting up, he didn't go anywhere. The first thing he did was go to the funeral home—where Kim Jong-hyun's memorial service was being held.
"There are far fewer now."
Looking outside from the passenger seat, Park Jae-hyun said, "Most of SM's artists arrived this morning, and those who weren't here have already come this afternoon. It's already considered late at this time."
Chi Jingyuan checked the time; it was already past four in the afternoon.
"Don't you need me to go in with you?" Park Jae-hyun asked when he saw Ji Kyung-won getting ready to get out of the car.
"No need, Brother Zhichang, just come with me... We'll be going now."
Chi Jingyuan shook his head and reached for the doorknob.
Just as they were about to open the door, they suddenly stopped.
After pausing for two seconds, he said to Park Jae-hyun, "By the way, hyung... Sana from Twice seems to have a magazine photoshoot today, could you check it out for me..."
"Where is it?"
“Sana? Okay, I’ll be right there.” Park Jae-hyun nodded in agreement immediately.
After noting it down in his phone's notes app, he seemed to have a guess and asked with a smile, "Jingyuan, is there something you need from Sana? Should we make any other preparations?"
Nothing special happened.
"If it's too far or inconvenient, then forget it."
Chi Jingyuan waved his hand, acting as if it was nothing.
After saying that, he looked out the window at the crowd, paused, and then said softly, "If the distance is relatively close..."
"There's something I want to say to her."